Hey There
My name is Maria, and I was born on the San Carlos Apache Indian Reservation. I grew up in California as a child and moved around until high school in Arizona. From there, I joined the U.S. Army, which landed me in Texas, then deployed to Iraq, where I met my husband and had a family.
After the Army, we moved to Arizona for a few years and then to Northern California for several years. During this time, I was a stay-at-home mother and eventually went back to school for the dental field. I became a registered dental assistant for a few years while working on becoming a registered dental hygienist.
Then COVID hit and put a small pause on the program. I finally finished the program, and shortly after, we were relocated to San Diego.
More On My Journey
How did I come into this work?
My entire life was filled with many obstacles. My soul chose to come to Earth and experience a wide array of challenges. I did not fit in as a child, I truly felt like the weird kid and not like others. I would see and hear things as a child and sometimes say things that were wiser than my years. I really did stand out and had a small circle of friends my entire life. The select few that stuck around, I hold close to my heart.
I was not an easy person to get along with because I did not feel accepted and felt like an outcast. I was told I was wrong a lot and I really did think outside the box. This caused deep frustration and anger within myself, which made me an even harder person to deal with. This eventually led to alcohol abuse and not having an “off switch” - not always, but a lot of the time. I truly became disconnected from myself and spirit because I lost my way.
I finally had another breaking point and was tired of the same patterns, and my husband sent me to my first Ayahuasca ceremony. I always felt like I put my family through a lot my entire life, but I know that it was because I was an empath. I was taking on things that did not belong to me.
This was just the beginning of my spiritual path. I experienced so much peace, which I never knew before or even thought was possible. The love I felt was something that I had forgotten, and I was determined to do the work. My last Ayahuascua ceremony took me to the depths of my soul. It was the hardest and one of the most life-changing and terrifying experiences. It definitely felt like it brought me to the brink of death. I remember seeing a light going towards it and my body started to feel numb and tingly. The facilitator started to hit the bottoms of my feet and shins with nettle. I could hear everything, but was stuck in the inbetween. This ceremony showed me why I had this deep anger, it showed me that I was actually carrying hate for myself and I had no idea. I learned that I blamed myself for the sexual trauma that happened to me over the years as a child and in the military. The medicine also showed me all of the ugliness I carried within myself. I was given the gift of facing my shadows and realizing how much power I was giving away. I saw two of my guides kneeling next to me and felt how much love and compassion they had for me.
Throughout my journey, I learned that "I am all that I seek," which I had heard during a deep meditation. This was another hurdle that I overcame, sitting in silence with myself and finding stillness. So don’t give up. If I can do it, you can do it.
I learned that I did not have to live in fear, which was especially important because I spent most of my life in fear. I found love for myself by working on forgiving myself because I carried hate for myself, which I was unaware of, but it made so much sense. I learned to embody my shadow and accept all parts of me. We are not meant to be perfect; we are human. But we can be the best versions of ourselves every day; always learning and spreading kindness to others, but most importantly for ourselves. We must remember to have compassion for ourselves because we are worthy.
This was difficult for me because I felt like the world was always working against me. I learned that we are the creators of our lives, and the key is to forgive ourselves and love ourselves. We do not need to look outside ourselves, we are all we need and everything is already within us. We are all that we seek.
What do I do?
My purpose is to help others find themselves through everything that I have learned. I am not a healer, but I offer a safe space to support and guide others to find their path to themselves with love and compassion, so that they can heal themselves. We all have the ability to do this, you just forgot how and we work together to help you remember.
All souls deserve a second chance to rewrite their story, especially the most lost souls. I am here to offer a space of non-judgment and unconditional love. I use different modalities to tune into your field and offer balancing, clearing, alignment, and ways to support you during your journey into becoming one with all parts of you.
